Sunday, January 18, 2015

Never Letting Go...

Each of my kids is special in his/her own unique way. Zachary has always been my tender-hearted, kind, sweet one.

The other night we were hugging each other, and he said, "I'm never letting go." I melted into a puddle of mush right then and there! Our hug lasted a good, long time, when we eventually had to let go. But we decided together that even when we have to let go of our hugs, we will never let go in our hearts.

Now it's kind of our thing. Whenever we hug or hold hands, one of us will say, "Never letting go."

I love it. And I love him. So. Much.

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Tears of Pride

There are certain moments when I pause to reflect and I'm overwhelmed at how GOOD life is! This is one of those moments for me.

This morning, we attended the last game of Jeremy's t-ball season. When he got up to bat, my inner softball player came out and coached him from the sideline..."This is the last time up to bat this season, buddy! So hit it 'Jeremy Style'...hit it as hard as you can!"

Little Dude didn't disappoint! He whacked that ball good 'n' hard and sent it sailing to the outfield! I leapt to me feet so fast, screaming at the top of my lungs, tears filling my eyes. It was all blurry, but I didn't even care because my heart was filled was such pride. That's MY boy!

Driving home, it hit me that I always thought there were just two kinds of tears: tears of sadness and tears of joy. But parenthood has taught me a new way to cry: with tears of PRIDE!

As I sat down to begin writing this post, I was overwhelmed with emotion...not at his t-ball playing, but at how incredibly grateful I am that God has given me these three amazing, precious, awesome children to parent and to love. I couldn't love them more. We may not share DNA, but they are my flesh and blood just the same. And I couldn't be more proud to call them my own!

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Let's Play Ball!

Jeremy is on a tee-ball team this year, the Colorado Rockies--GOOOO ROCKIES!!!

Today was his second game of the season, and this former softball player of a mom was soooo proud of my boy! Jeremy played in the infield today, and wow did he do great! His coach gave him a game ball after the game for doing such a good job today.

Here are some pics of my guy in action!


Every Texan child goes through a rite of passage--being photographed in a patch of our state flower...bluebonnets! This was Zoe's year, which is only appropriate for the one native-born Texan in our family!

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Three Teeth and a Whole Lot of CUTE!

Dear Zoe,

On January 2, you got your first tooth, and I thought there could be nothing cuter than baby Zoe with one bottom tooth. Honestly, look at this face!

But two weeks later, your second bottom tooth popped through, and the cuteness just increased!

Valentines Day 2014

You are such a happy baby girl and you smile at me every day, so this sweet two-toothed grin has been warming my heart for the past month.

Today we were at a local playground with your brothers. I was holding you and you smiled at me, and I noticed your third tooth poking through. I'm yet to get a good photo of it, but I will soon. It's your top left tooth. 

Zoe, I feel badly because I haven't blogged about your first year the way I did with your brothers, but having three kids has brought a whole new meaning to the word "overwhelmed" and there simply isn't enough time for regular blogging. However, I want you to know that I've been having an absolute blast with you! You are truly my dream-come-true! The bond we share as mother and daughter is really something special, and the true hope of my heart is that we will be close for life. You're such a blessing to us, and I will be thankful to God for placing you in our family forever!!!

I will always, always, always, always, always, always, always, always hold you in my heart.

I love you,

Monday, August 5, 2013

On the eve of my 39th Birthday...

I love birthdays because they are a lovely reason to reflect on the past year and also to dream about the year ahead.

God has been so good to me and blessed me in so many ways during the past year....

On the heels of my birthday last year, I began rehearsals for "Girls Only", which turned out to be my favorite on-stage experience so far. Not only was it pure joy to act in this fabulous comedy, but it ended up running for five months! A dream job, and one for which I will always be grateful!!!

After "Girls Only" came to a close in February and my pace of life began to slow down, I started to get antsy. I felt like I had cabin fever when I was at home during the day, so I planned a cross-country road trip. I had it all scheduled with many stops along the way all set up. We would be gone for three weeks in April.

Those plans came to a grinding halt when three things happened. First, I found out that I had to be in San Antonio for a meeting that got scheduled right in the middle of my planned trip. Second, my friend Sarah in New Jersey who I was planning to spend several days with on my trip, called to tell me that a baby boy had been born in Las Vegas, and she and her husband would be traveling there for at least 2 weeks to adopt him. And just one week after Sarah called me with her big news, we got some big news of our own...which brings me to the third thing: our adoption agency called us to say that a baby girl had been born who they thought would be a good match for our family.

So I think it's safe to say that God knew all along that my best laid road trip plans were not meant to be this year. However, I prefer His plan to mine!!!

Zoe has been the sweetest and most precious daughter I could dream of! She is beyond wonderful, and we all just love her so, so, so, so much!

As I look forward to the coming year, I have an immense feeling of satisfaction. Brian and I sense that Zoe is our last baby, and my focus is much less on family planning now and more on family raising. Now that my babies are all here, I'm looking forward to seeing them grow up. I also look forward to all of us growing closer as a family, as our bond deepens as a family of five.

Speaking of family, I would be remiss if I didn't mention two very special boys who live in Ethiopia named Ephrem and Habtamu, ages 19 and 11. They are my long-distance sons who live across the ocean. They melt my heart every time they call me "Mom". Although they have not taken up residence in our home (and there are no plans for that), they have definitely taken up residence in my heart, and I love them.

What a great year 38 has been! Thank You, God, for all of the amazingly beautiful blessings You have generously poured out on me!

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Two months since I met my daughter!

Dear Zoe,

Two months ago today, Daddy and I met you for the first time! You were two and a half weeks old and weighed 3 pounds 3 ounces. We couldn't believe how small you were. Moments after we told our adoption agency social worker that we wanted to adopt you, we prayed for you. Dad prayed the "Jesus prayer"...that you would "grow in wisdom and stature and in favor with God and man".


Small and smiling!
And look how you have grown! In the past two months, you have gained five pounds, grown at least 5 inches longer, and graduated from preemie to newborn size in both diapers and clothing!

Two months later...still with a beautiful smile!
 Zoe, being your mother is heaven on earth for me! I love you so much! I love holding and cuddling you, putting you in cute baby girl outfits, caring for you, and taking your pictures!

Daddy and I have figured out a feeding schedule for you that allows both him and me to get a decent night's sleep. I do your late night feedings and he does your early morning ones. This works out well, since I'm a night owl and he is a morning person. I love cuddling you late at night. Usually, we are on a love seat curled up watching something on Netflix. You like to sleep on my chest, knees tucked up under you in a little ball. I'm savoring these moments of your early life because I know that the first year passes so quickly! Even though the thought of these early days winding to an end makes me a little sad, I'm also excited for what is yet to come.

When we were deciding to pursue adopting a third child (YOU!), it became very clear to me how important it was for me to have a daughter. Maybe it's because I grew up in a family of girls, or maybe it's just because I'm a bit of a girly girl and I wanted to share that with a daughter. All I can say is that I am absolutely delighted to have YOU for my daughter, and I find myself looking forward to sharing so many life experiences with you. From the superficial/stereotypical things like shopping and pedis to deeper things like developing a real heart-to-heart relationship with you and talking about all sorts of things.

Your name means "life" and I am so blessed to be a witness to yours. I pray that God blesses you with a beautiful and abundant life. Just as Daddy prayed for you that first day we met you, may you grow in wisdom and stature and in favor with God and man.

I love you all the way up to the moon and back,